Pretty or Not?
Muahaha~ Just me and my bout of zi-lian-kuang-ness (again!). Heh~ Pardon the flaws...I haven't got time to touch up on my skin lar. Haha~ Photo taken some time in August (I think), during my birthday dinner with my bros.
Just in case you are wondering...my bros = my clique in school lar. We've been hanging out since year 1 and then because there's always an overload of 'yang' over the 'yin'...Hence they decided everyone's a "bro". Ah. But nevermind lar. They are nice people to talk cock sing song and even study too. All of them are those high-fliers...(except me sia! >.<) Next time I find nicer pics of them then post for okies! Heh~ Listening to my mp3s just now, I suddenly realise how much I have grown up over the 2 years in school. Being in university and staying in hall...gave me a chance to learn to be independent, how to live with others (with roomies mah) and also how to domesticate! Haha~ Seriously leh, when I listen to those mp3s, it was as if I haven't met Clement and I was still madly into that silly tree-trunk (btw tree-trunk = my ex-crush). And my previous blog was full of it okies. Some time back I read it and I nearly pengz at it...because of the sheer number of times my entries concerned tree-trunk.
Yup...actually ah, tree-trunk was the guy who really made me see a lot of things which otherwise I will never know lor. I dunno leh, just that everytime with him I see new things sia. And then I learn new things sia. And I also realised how sometimes the most ideal guy (in my mind) is not ideal for me in real life. Really da4 kai1 yan3 jie4 okies. Haha.
He's really someone whom I could say I almost idolized...except for the fact that, I got a huge crush/infatuation/whatever on him that went out of hand lar. Up till now, sometimes I think back on the sweet things he did for me, I will wonder was it just gentlemanly on his part or did he really had something for me but didn't want to reveal.
I said that because there was once he told me, "we come to university, so our priority is to study mah. Everything else can wait... " So sometimes come to think of it, even if he likes someone he will probably put everything on hold first...because of his priorities lor. :) And recently my friend was telling me that there are guys who really go around to know girls, as in know girls and be real close to them, see whether got any feelings, gauge whether they are compatible or not, then go ahead with the chase de. I find it quite okay lar, as long as you don't reveal that you actually like the girl, it's not like you are leading the girl on...I guess plenty of guys adopt this wait-and-see approach bah...I suspect tree-trunk is doing the same thing too. LoLs~
Okies I think this whole post is going to be about tree-trunk sia. Haha~ Reason I started a brand-new blog because I don't really wanna talk about tree-trunk. Heh~ But seems like I still end up talking about him...coz of my mp3s! Haha~ Sometimes songs can really make you feel nostalgic and all that de...I find that this is what happens to me 99% of the time. And with tree-trunk there's so many "Theme Songs" for him lor. Haha~ In the past when I had single room and I was madly into tree-trunk, all the songs I blast I will end up thinking of him...sheesh~ So duh man...right now I listen to all these songs I think of tree trunk again sia. Heh~ Some things just never changes, doesn't it? ;)
Anyway. Me and Clement are totally alright and totally fine right now. Haha~ I am so glad that we have cleared things up between us. And to think it all started because of his brother's wedding. *rolleyes* Buay tahan leh. I really don't know if he's being soooo nice and thoughtful of the "sending me back" part or he's just simply extraordinary. My gf says that no one will think so far lor...except for Clement. Can you imagine how duh right... -_-
We had a talk just before the day of his brother's wedding lor. It was like a "Let's thrash things out" session sia. Just for us to say out everything that we are not happy with each other lor. Heh~ And so we did. It wasn't a fight or anything, more like a consolidation after these series of things happened and all that. Sometimes it's good to have engineers as boyfriends man. It's the way they are trained! Haha! Very analytical mind. LoL. Just like me. So we both analyse everything, sort things out, and then resolved to let everything start anew, and do our best in the relationship.
I am quite glad lar. We were really having problems for quite some time, and then everytime something is okay some other things are not okay...then everything become so problematic again, then have to resolve again, then the vicious cycle just go on and on lar. Never really get a chance to sit down properly and think about why certain things arise, or the fact that we also never really properly resolved any outstanding issue.
Yup. Actually on Saturday he asked me to go to his bro's wedding OK. So stewpig!!!!! By then I was already not minding the fact that I didn't go and he didn't want to bring me and all that...and then he came along and asked me to go. Part of me wanted to go and part of me didn't really want lar. I wanted to go because:
1) Can wear mei mei with nice hair and nice make up
2) Can attend dinners again! The last grand ballroom dinner I went was held by school for the President (of NTU and SG, no less) and I didn't get to eat at all coz I gotta work...bleah~
3) Can take a mei mei picture with clement since he will also be looking so shuai4 qi4 that day!
But I didn't want to go because I am paiseh lar. Haven't even really officially met the parents, then suddenly go meet relatives also weird weird de. Somemore he already said he will be entertaining all his relatives, and knowing him, even I stuck to him like super-glue, he will probably find some chance to throw me aside. Then I have to entertain myself sia. Bleah~
Oh yah. I miss organising events man. Haha~ It makes me feel oh-so-important although the people can demand like mad and the stress is superbly ridiculous. But when everything falls into place and the event goes well...got that sense of man3 zhu2 gan3. That's why I joined my ECA mah. LoL. Grrrrr.
It's late liao lar. I shall go sleep. Lest I oversleep for my 8.30AM lesson again. (What's new!?)
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