Well, I'm back at home, home means the comforts of a proper PC, a queen-size bed, the warmth of family. :)
Almost.
Yesterday night I came home...and while I was bathing and washing up, I found all my things misplaced. My clothes all ended up in my sis's drawer. My contact lense case was nowhere to be found. In place of my contact lense case was my father's facial foam. I feel so...forgotten. :-( Up till now I still have no idea where is my contact lense case. Basically because I didn't ask for it lor. So no one realised that I am back and I don't have a proper place to put my contacts.
Look what does 9 days of missing from home do to my family... -_-
But nevermind lar. I shall make my presence felt once again. Muahaha. :p So evil. Heehee~
Anyway I came back home because my parents are going Genting lor. And they are worried that there won't be anyone at home to look after my little sis. So I got summoned back. That's how important I am! Ho-ho-ho.
Hm...some random stuffs to follow:
Yesterday Clement fetched me back from hall, and while driving back, he was listening to Beyond's songs. I suddenly thought that we really do have this HUGE age-gap...like he's living in another generation and me in my own. Coz for me it's all Jay and Stefanie...while for him it's people like Beyond and Eason Chan. Suddenly it striked me that we are actually poles apart man...
And then there was this particular love song...I forgot the title, but he liked it a lot. During those 2 times we went KTV together he would sing it...and while listening to Beyond's CD, this song came up...it's a very ballade/sensual kind of song...soft soft de...anyway. I had this image that he would be hugging his ex-gf and then whisper into her ear that he loves her. Like, so stupid right. Stupid of me to go and think of this. But, maybe it's also because of DMS. Or maybe it's because that kind of song, automatically puts this image of a guy hugging a girl close to him and then whisper into her ear that he loves her lor. And so I thought of that too...and too bad for me, the girl I envisioned was not me but actually his ex. -_- Can't believe it. Sheesh.
Oh, and then my roomie was telling me that tree trunk got girlfriend!!! I was like WAH. Haha. Tree trunk is my crush mah. Madly infatuated crush. LoL. He's like, my reality Dao Ming Si okies. Tall, dark, handsome, and then somemore he has a very interesting personality. Though my friend thinks that he's ugly. Haha~ Then again, looks are subjective. Oh, and did I mention he was my dream guy? Literally one...because he's everything I ever wanted in a guy. LoL. But then, I may not be everything he wanted in a girl lar. Heehee~
Whether tree trunk got girlfriend or not, my roomie also not that sure. Coz she says he always hang out with this girl for all the lects/tutorials. So even if not girlfriend, then is a very close girl-friend lor. I jealous can. Haha. I want to be his close-girl-friend. Dream on...
Maybe I watched too much Liu Xing Hua Yuan that period after my A's and before uni started. That's why. Wahahaha~ :D
Hm. Ok lar. Enough of fantasizing. Poor Clement is sick and today he still met me wor. I feel so bad so bad. Like I am the demanding person in the relationship to the point whereby I am unreasonable. Reason being because I couldn't study at home and needed to go out lor. And so he drove down to pick me up, and then we went IMM. All these while he only told me he got sore throat lor. So I thought, sore throat, then don't talk too much lor. Just drink coke with salt will be ok le lor.
Turns out that he's having symptoms of flu lar. So, drowsiness, grogginess, sets in. And he's driving wor. Which is pretty dangerous too. Sigh. Towards the end of the night he didn't look particularly happie lor. Then after I probe him then he say so. Oh man. If it's so bad then he should have said lor. I asked him why and then he say because I wanted to go out study, so he wanted to bring me out lor. He scared that I will end up doing nothing at home.
He's so sweet and yet I feel like a kind of zui4 ren2. Sigh. Oh, but then he also gave me attitude lor. Grrrrr. That's why I probed him mah. Why must it always be like that? Why can't he just say it out? Why must wait until he so unhappy/irritated/angry, snap me, then he will tell me?!!? I don't geddit. Bleah.
Today I cried again. Like so embarrassing coz we were outside lor. He was damn fierce towards me, just over a small little thing like the volume of the CD player. He couldn't hear the reverse sensor beep so he just scolded me for not lowering the volume. Grrrr. I wanted to, just that I didn't do it fast enough. (I was fiddling with the sound effects settings beforehand) I didn't realise he needed to listen for the sensor beep. Last time the cars all got no sensor one mah. Still can park right? Bleah~
Anyway, everytime he snaps at me or loses his temper at me I will just somehow breakdown and cry de lor. And everytime this happens I will tell myself next time it wouldn't happen. And the next time it comes I will still end up crying. It's quite duh lar, coz being me, if it's someone else I would probably answer back lor. I won't just keep quiet, listen liao and don't say anything. This only happens when the person in question is him. Maybe sub-consciously I just cannot accept the fact that the person I love so deeply can be so mean and fierce to me.
Is this like, a repercussion of childhood? I hope not. Sigh.
Cheers~
Just me.
Stunningly Gorgeous Y 1:50 AM
