Haha~ I am quite happie today lar. I was trying to "create" a template of sorts so that I could print photo-stickers. And I managed! Woohoo~ So excited and so happie. So right now I can print photo-stickers and paste them everywhere lar! Muahahaha~
Actually I had intended to do this "anni" book for clement de, because he bought the book during our 1st anni, and at that time I was thinking can write our thoughts in and all that. However, as time passed we had mounting problems and so the inspiration to do one diminished lor. However, with this photo-stickers thingy, my inspiration is revived! Haha. Can paste it all over the book bah. :p
Yup. And I had a darn funny dream last night! Dreamt that I was in school and I was having lunch with tree trunk!!! LoL~ But I think it was me, tree trunk, and another girl lar. -_- And I think that other girl is very pretty de lor. Bleah~ And I dreamt that tree trunk and the other girl from the same hall de. Hm. But the funny thing was we were having lunch on a bench in the field lor. There's no such place in school leh. And then all the time I was having lunch I felt like digging my nose sia. And I also felt so paiseh for digging my nose. LoL~ Buay tahan. Silly dream. Then after finishing lunch the girl and tree trunk walked back to their hall lor. And I felt so sad can? So stupid. :p
Hm...putting things into perspective, I ought to be thankful for what I have been given and not keep whining about everything else. I realise that I am a victim of circumstance...one thing leads to another and then boom! Suddenly I am 21 years older and at the junction of crossroads wondering whether I should move forward, left or right? Never have I ever had the chance to choose...because the choice isn't mind. I just go along with the flow because that's what I have been given, I don't get to choose because I haven't achieved enough to gain what I wanted to do most....to make choices.
Or maybe I am just not brave enough to go against the norm, to do things which are deemed taboo, or just, I didn't dare to do it, because what if I screw it up as well? I think all my life I have been afriad of failures, that I worry for everything. It's strange huh, because for a person who is afriad of failures, he/she should work harder to make sure she doesn't fail. As for me, I just worry on. That's me, pessimistic me, worrying about things that may never happen.
And I can't stand people who have been given it all, who are lucky to be given everything they needed and wanted in their lives, and then in turn, they scorn at others who didn't managed to get what they want in life. Hm. Had the roles be reversed, will they still be scorning at others? If they didn't have such a blessed brain which allows them to study twice the amount in half the time, would they have gotten all their A's? If they didn't have parents with stellar contacts to get them whatever they want, would they have gotten so far in their life?
I have nothing against those people who have everything well laid-out in their lives, just because they have wonderful parents who seems to be linked to every other person who are important enough. I don't give a damn. But I really hate it when they don't realise how lucky they are and they scorn at others (directly or indirectly) by making sarcastic statements degrading you for your lack of brain power and hence, "you should be used to it what." No one has to get used to anything, least of all, sarcastic and degrading statements.
Best part of this? It comes from a person I so-called Friend. Yup. I am a Leo, and Leos, being extreme loyal people, I absolutely cannot tolerate this. The whole world can look down on me and scorn me to death, but not my friends or family. For a friend who does this, I don't regard he/she as a friend anymore. She just fades into nothing-ness, because she no longer exists anymore. :)
Who needs this kind of people as friends when you have other people who can love you more and treat you better right? Haha.
Anyway, I am so glad! My dearest and me are going for chalet this fri! And we are going to spend Friday and Saturday together! Yay. And we shall go watch movie on Friday night too! Ocean's Twelve. Haha. I have already planned the movie liao sia. Hahaha. And actually, our chalet is not the Pasir Ris chalet okies! LoL~ Though we have been there before also lar. But it wasn't luxurious and it's too far from everything!!! Our chalet this time round is smack in the middle of busy Orchard Road...hahaha. Goody! Can go for midnight movies and also eat at the roadside kopitiam lar. So happie!
This is like, the 3rd time we are going for a chalet stay this year, and the 5th time we are going for chalet liaoz. Ok lar. Our chalet is actually hotel lar. LoL~ So fun can? Been busy visiting different hotels in singapore sia. And I am so excited this coming one because it's going to be a Premiere Room which boasts of a Jaccuzi!!! Woohoo. It's a first for us because usually we will get the cheapest hotel room in whichever hotel we get lar. LoL~ Although the hotels we have been to are not cheap lor. Anyway, plus this coming one, only 4 hotels so far lar! So not much of a survey too. :)
My dream hotel will be Ritz!!! Wahahaha~ I really hope that if I am ever going to get married, it will be at the Ritz! Grrr. That's because I love the concept of the bathtub by the window. So romantic...then can sip champagne and all that. And bridal suites are supposed to be very very nice de! Ritz is well-known for it's romance stuffs mah. Hahaha. So that means I must earn a lot of money first before I get married. Or else marry some guy with loads of money lar! Hahaha! But hor I stil got a lot of things to do sia. I wanna travel around the world also, and I wanna give my parents a good life before I marry off sia. LoL~
My dream date to marry? 09/09/09!! Haha. 9's signify longevity mah. Such a nice date. Heh~ Longevity of our marriage. So nice yah. Or 20/09/2009! Nice right? Hahahaha. Anyway I will be in my late 20's by then. Hm...how would it be like? 5 years from now on wor...
Cheers~
Dreaming-of-weddings-Jesslyn
Stunningly Gorgeous Y 11:47 AM
