Haven't blogged for a very very long time....
Too much has happened, but I'm glad the worst has blown over for now. As for the coming months, one can only hope so much. :)
Well, that was in a nut shell! Heh~ Out of the shell, my grandfather's been hospitalised for a very serious neck injury that left him paralysed. And so, I'm shuttling between work and hospital everyday. It's been like this for the past 2 weeks, and well, I don't access my blog from the office (for fear that it may get discovered), so I can only blog at home. Anyway I'm simply drained everyday I get home, so it's bathe, TV, sleep. Next morning wake up and go work again lor.
For a while, it was really bad, because I really thought I was going to lose my grandfather, and so I was quite emotional about the whole thing. Every time I visited him I always ended up in tears, and so it was definitely a tough period of time for me. Sigh. This grandfather of mine, was actually the same person who went cruise with my family and mr clement...and went swimming with me, clement, my sis, and me. And he is 79 years old already.
And things changed overnight. Literally. He fell, hurt his neck, and his whole body was paralysed. He was on the bed day in, day out, and he couldn't even sit up, because his body would topple. So he would lie on the bed rod straight, and can't move unless we move him. Which we can't because it would further aggravate his neck injury.
However, he just went for operation last Thursday, and even though the doctor said his survival may be 30% as the operation has too many complications, I am so thankful that my grandfather managed to make it and is now on his road to recovery. And even the recovery is also 30%, I pray and hope, with my grandfather's determination and strength, he will be able to make it through. Though he may not be able to walk without help or anything, but as long as he can move his arms, fingers, and sit up, it will be good enough.
One can only hope for the better as the days go by, right? :)
And so, now that the worst has blown over for me, I'm finally less emotional and in a better state to dwell about other things.
And that's mr clement.
I'm so disillusioned regarding my relationship with him, and for a while, I really really wanted to break off with him. It's not the wilful me who's acting up again, it's the very mature me who have been thinking things through. Somehow, this crisis which I faced with my grandfather, really made me see what kind of person mr clement is very clearly.
In the darkest moments of my life, this mr clement was never around. And never once did he ask to visit the hospital. Even when I asked him whether he wanted to, he always find some funny excuse to get out of it. I was rather disappointed because I thought he would be more supportive of me during this whole thing.
And so for now, we are on tenterhooks, I dunno what will happen next, because I can't bring myself to be with him again. Or to say, I don't even know whether he's the one guy whom I want to spend the rest of my life with. I need a guy who will always be around to hold me up when I am down. And mr clement failed miserably.
Sigh. And they always say, huan4 nan4 jian4 zhen1 qing2. I believe. And I believe through a crisis, the ugly side will always come out tops.
Grrrrrrrrr~
Stunningly Gorgeous Y 10:10 PM
