I don't know the issue of trust, because I have never learnt how to trust
properly. To trust unconditionally? Or to trust warily. To trust with love? Or
to trust naively. To trust because it liberates you? Or to trust because it is
required of you.

To trust unconditionally, is too scary in my opinion. You never know how the other may make use of that trust to do things, that may turn against you. You never know how the other takes in the view of your trust. Let's say if you trust unconditionally but all he/she thinks is that you are not, and doesn't cherish that trust you have given him/her, then in the end, all you have is just your own naivity for being to trusting.

To trust with love? Not really. Love doesn't equate trust, that I've learnt. Be it love between family members or love between couples. Even family members keep things from each other, not to mention couples, who were strangers when they met. Maybe love is not so great after all.

To trust because it liberates you? Maybe so. Maybe I needed someone to talk to, to share my feelings, to seek advice...that sort of thing. So I trusted someone to tell them my inner thoughts and my feelings, thinking that I could in return get some advice or maybe just understand myself better. Yup...such a trust is the least intimate of all, and it's something which everyone needs.

We all seek advices from day to day...sometimes without even our knowing. This kind of trust is innocent, not because it doesn't require any information to be kept (meaning the receiving end of the trust can jolly well relate the same information to someone else) but because information is given in the belief that it will exchange useful information. And this trust, I would like to believe, is the most harmless of all. Even if there are no exchange of useful information, it still liberates the truster, which is often, more than enough.

So much for the issue of trust. I think I still like to stick to the least intimate yet most liberating trust. Gee...that's what we call bitching. So what? Bitching about someone/something is also good. I would rather be a bitch than hide in 1 corner
and weep. Hahaha.

Oh, and I forgot to mention. There are times whereby people have their reasons not to trust. And that is probably during the time when people think of some stuffs which they feel can be directed at someone whom they can trust, yet they feel that it's sometimes best left unsaid. So it's a case like, I can't trust myself to trust you so I can't trust you with whatever I wish to tell you.

Isn't that like such a big dilemma? In my opinion, if you have to think so much about holding information before telling someone, I believe it's also better left unsaid. Better not say than to say already and suffer to repercussions. Hahaha.

Anyway even if there are repercussions, you can always go, "Hey, I trusted you enough to tell you and now you are doing this to me?!" Make the person giving out the repercussions guilty a bit lor. Then maybe he/she will stop handing out repercussions. Hahaha.