• Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.
  
• Share fun times with me.
  
• Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.
  
• Let me know that I am important and special to you.
  
• Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.

• Reassure me that I am intersting to you.
  
• Reassure me often that you love me.
  
• Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.

• being able to relate easily to people and to make friends
  
• knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better
  
• being generous, caring, and warm
  
• being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings
  
• being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor

• not being able to say no
  
• having low self-esteem
  
• feeling drained from overdoing for others
  
• not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish
  
• criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should
  
• being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to them
  
• working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings

• are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism
  
• try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding
  
• are outwardly compliant
  
• are popular or try to be popular with other children
  
• act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention
  
• are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Twos), or quiet and shy (the more introverted Twos)

• are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)
  
• are often playful with their children
  
• wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?" "Have I caused irreparable damage?"
  
• can become fiercely protective

Oh! And I have another one...concerning my birth month...

outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisteroius.VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an"everything's peachy" attitude. loves screaming, talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. loves to flirt. hates being left out. hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious."charming" or "beautiful" to a special person. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

Oooh! So true!! I hate studying!!! LoL~~~~ =P

And clement always says I'm beautiful even when I feel so ugly. Blah~~~

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Anyway today's like such an interesting day...met up with a few friends whom I haven't seen a very long time...that friend of mine has got a new gf!! So I very kay poh wanna know her lor.. lol~ So popped by his room and took a peep...and in the end we all ended up going to JEC for shakes and KFC.

So she's like perfect for him sia...And I'm happy for him too!! Like so nice that he finally found someone whom he can be totally himself with rather than having to watch every word he says... I think this is much much better yah?? =p

And I was speaking to the Prez about finding that one other person....he just said something which is quite meaningful: "You know, the whole world can throw crap at you and really make you feel lousy, but at the end of the day, you know that you have someone out there, and everything else is insignificant." (Not an accurate quote, but the gist is there...ha ha.)

Wahhhh. So profound. And yet so true. I've always been quite amazed at the way he can tolerate the other friend who's throwing crap at him sometimes...becoz that friend threw crap at me before and all I wanted to do was to strangle him and kill him. Haha. And when he dua us for project meeting I also wanted to kill him already. LoL~~ But yet the Prez can tahan!! And I am so amazed. But after he said that to me...I realised that I shouldn't really make everything matter so much....like what's the point right!?! People who intent on screwing up your life will continue to do so...people who throw crap will continue to do so...like why worry so much sia!!!

Ooh. But I don't have any someone out there...or rather, I don't really feel this way with clement. Maybe because we both always made it a point to avoid talking about our own problems, difficulties whatsoever.....I don't have that inclination to tell him everything, just like he never tells me anything. Gee. I think this is unhealthy but it's always been this way between us for a long long time...

But of course if he throws crap at me I would probably collapse liao lor...haha. Just imagine having the one you care for most giving you nonsense and being really mean to you....it's 10000x worse than having other people throwing crap at you (or maybe, just as bad). I don't think it will ever happen and I hope not...

But with or without clement, I'm getting quite good at this "block every unpleasant thing out" business. Now when something pisses me off, I just go "dunno, dun care". And it's getting better everytime another person pisses me off/makes me sad/gives me crap. Yes, I'll be hurt. Yes, I'll wonder if it's my problem, if it's my fault. But this lasts for like a max of 1 hour. After that, I will employ the "dunno, dun care" attitude. I shall take it that I dunno, so I dun have to care. Wahaha~~

Nothing can get me down now. Haha. I will only let things/people that are closest to my heart matter to me. Everything else can just get out of the way. Sometimes I just feel that being too nice/too good/too caring is not good. Some people don't appreciate it. Some people just smack it back into your face. Some people just totally ignore it. Worse, some people pretend to be nice back and then strike a dozen knives into your back later. So, since my presence in their lives is so redundant, I don't mind just retreating...better for her and me and the whole wide world huh!!

And I can't tahan when people get so hypocratical....gee. There's no need to pretend to like me just because I am around, and then hate me after I go off. -_-!! Eh, not tiring meh?? I feel so tired just thinking of it. It takes a lot of energy to be so pretentious...you not tired I also tired. LoL~~~

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The above post...started on 3rd March 2006, ended today (6 March 2006). aka Very Slow! =P